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After more than four months of interaction, although it wasn't a long time, it was still significant. With Ouyang Zixin's serious demeanor, they had established a revolutionary camaraderie. Parting so abruptly truly felt unsettling.
For instance—
Ouyang Zixin still couldn't manage to condense the Mysterious Energy into weapons like swords outside of his body. When dealing with captured Mystical Beasts, processing their fur and meat was quite laborious.
Another example—
It seemed there was no winter in the secret realm, and ever since the three had parted ways, for some unknown reason, the temperature appeared to have risen significantly. Without Yun Tianmo's icy presence, Ouyang Zixin often found himself sweating profusely.
"Sigh..." After countless sighs, the hardships of solitary struggle were evident, and the feeling of loneliness was particularly pronounced.
He remembered in his past life, Ouyang Zixin had done a report on "Children of the Stars," focusing on children with autism. At that time, he also learned about why humans experience feelings of loneliness and the potential negative impacts it could have on a person's future.
In the blink of an eye, over half a year had passed. He was completely isolated from the outside world, spending each day either battling various Mystical Beasts or meditating to consolidate and expand the Mysterious Energy within his Mind. Continuing like this made him wonder if he would eventually be unable to bear this sense of isolation, which could impose a significant psychological burden.
If he succeeded in the trials but ended up suffering from the pain of rejection due to prolonged isolation from others, it would be disastrous. Long-term or severe loneliness could lead to certain emotional disorders and diminish one's mental health.
Thinking about that iceberg, Yun Tianmo, he wondered if it was precisely because of long-term isolation that he had become what he was now. A person who seemed to have psychological issues; Ouyang Zixin suspected that his sense of loneliness had created a barrier between him and others, leading to further alienation and ultimately resulting in a disordered personal state.
As Ouyang Zixin skinned and deboned the Mystical Beast with a sharpened stone, his thoughts wandered.
If he were to become like Yun Tianmo in the future, wouldn't that be a sign of psychological illness?
Moreover, as the saying goes, one either erupts in silence or becomes twisted in silence.
"No way, I don't want to be a pervert." Ouyang Zixin shook her head vigorously, trying to shake off the chaotic thoughts in her mind. If she kept groping around like this, she would drive herself crazy.
After a long sigh, Ouyang Zixin hastily ate some Roasted Xuan Beast Meat and found a low-lying pit to sit cross-legged and begin meditating.
Not long after Ouyang Zixin entered a meditative state, a figure passed by not far from her.
The distance between them was only about ten feet, yet neither sensed the other's presence. In just a moment, the figure walked away.
Yun Tianmo had been wandering around this area for three days. He had a feeling that someone was nearby.
However, no matter how much Mysterious Energy he released to probe the surroundings, he found nothing. If he didn't discover anything today, Yun Tianmo planned to leave, as the Mystical Beasts in this area were beneath his notice.
Just as Yun Tianmo's figure disappeared from sight, Ouyang Zixin woke from her meditation. "Why do I feel like someone was nearby just now?"
For the past six months, Ouyang Zixin had been troubled by this unfamiliar and lonely environment and the sudden separation. This was the first time she felt so strongly that someone was close by.
Eagerly getting up, Ouyang Zixin looked around. The air here was always filled with a grayish unknown gas, limiting her visibility. Even though she had slightly improved her strength over the past six months, she could only see about twenty feet ahead.
"No one." Could it be just her illusion? Was she so eager to meet someone else that she created this false perception?
Feeling somewhat dejected, Ouyang Zixin returned to the pit, hugged her knees, and her sense of loss intensified.
"Anyone would do! Yun—Tian—Mo—Nangong—Tuo, where are you all!" To dispel her loneliness, Ouyang Zixin shouted into the air: "Come out..."
In her previous life, the world was overcrowded; she never had to worry about feeling lonely. With endless work to do every day, Ouyang Zixin barely had time to feel empty. After crossing over to Yuhai Continent, she had Liu Ying and Liu Lu by her side, along with a mother who never seemed to grow up and a father who doted on her. Her childhood was happy and fulfilling.
Even when she entered this secret realm, there were still Yun Tianmo and Nangong Tuo around. Even if Yun Tianmo was an ice mountain, there was still A Three to bicker with every day, so she never felt lonely.
Ouyang Zixin felt increasingly wronged, unable to hold back her tears as they rolled down her cheeks. Her little nose quickly turned red from crying, and after a while, she hastily wiped away her tears. "Ouyang Zixin, you're not a child anymore; how can you cry like this? It's so embarrassing."
After giving herself a pep talk, Ouyang Zixin decided to treat the solitude in this secret realm as a test of whether she could truly become stronger inside.
"The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment. As long as I focus on my cultivation, time will pass quickly. Ouyang Zixin, you can't keep hoping to meet them every day; that will only distract you. Do you understand?"
She patted her cheeks and raised the corners of her mouth. The inner world of an adult is strong and won't easily crumble. It's just isolation from others; I'm not afraid anymore! Not afraid at all!
From then on, Ouyang Zixin focused even more on her cultivation, casting aside all distractions. The speed at which her skills improved was far beyond what it had been in the past six months.
Time flew by, and twenty years passed in the blink of an eye. Ouyang Zixin no longer felt any strangeness in the secret realm. She was already well-acquainted with where the Mystical Beasts were suitable for her combat training and where she could find food.
During this time, she had not encountered anyone, and she did not feel disappointed because of it.
When the three of them entered the secret realm together and accidentally got separated, even if she met other people who had entered the realm, Ouyang Zixin would not feel happy. She preferred to explore the secret realm alone rather than encounter strangers; she was no longer a burden and didn't want to meet someone who would become a burden to her.
"Strange, didn't they say that ten years in the secret realm equals one year outside? Twenty years should only be two years; why are my clothes getting shorter so quickly?" While peeling the fur off a Tiger Eye Black Leopard, Ouyang Zixin glanced at her reflection in the river.
Only two years? Why does it feel like I've grown up so much?
Carefully cleaning the fur of the Tiger Eye Black Leopard, she used the extracted leopard tendons to sew it onto her original outfit, not remembering how many times she had patched up her clothes that had shrunk.
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