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Although it was a brief process of opening and closing her eyes, Autumn Wind felt as if she had traversed a century.
She first placed her hand on her abdomen, flatly, then quickly retracted the painful emotions of losing her child, calculating how she should react.
Anger? Because of Jolie's matter? No, there wasn't that much love; how could there be anger...
Sadness? Because of the child's departure? No, there wasn't that much cherishing; how could there be sadness...
Autumn Wind suddenly recalled what the doctor had said about her possibly losing her memory. That's right, forgetting would be the best outcome.
Autumn Wind took a deep breath. Yes, just forget Liu Jian's existence, no need to face the child's passing, no need to confront Jolie and Liu Jian's matters. This might be a good start.
Thus, Autumn Wind slowly opened her eyes. She reached up to pull out a few strands of soft hair that had been stuck in her neck.
Then she struggled to sit up.
Liu Jian noticed that Autumn Wind had opened her eyes, and his expression suddenly softened. His flushed face revealed the guilt and panic in his heart. He rubbed his hands together in front of his chest, his hoarse voice came through: "Autumn Wind, you finally woke up..."
According to the script in Autumn Wind's mind, she immediately widened her eyes and pretended not to recognize Liu Jian, panicking as she shouted: "Who are you? Where am I?"
"Autumn Wind! You don't recognize me anymore!" Liu Jian's previously calm demeanor instantly turned tense. His hands, which had been rubbing together, suddenly rested on Autumn Wind's arm. "You really don't recognize me!"
Autumn Wind still looked panicked. She forcefully pushed Liu Jian's hand off her shoulder and shouted: "Who are you?!"
"Autumn Wind, what's wrong? You don't recognize me? I'm Liu Jian!"
Liu Jian's hand returned to Autumn Wind's arm again. Autumn Wind avoided Liu Jian's closeness. "Get away! I don't know you! What do you want?!" Autumn Wind shouted.
Qiu Ruolan, who was originally on the phone in the hallway, heard Autumn Wind's shout and rushed in. She saw Autumn Wind, face full of anger, pushing Liu Jian, and assumed that Liu Jian was bullying Autumn Wind again.
Like a frightened mother wolf, she lunged forward and forcefully pushed Liu Jian away. "What are you doing? Haven't you hurt her enough?"
With her furious shout, Qiu Ruolan embraced Autumn Wind, resting her delicate chin on Autumn Wind's forehead, and Autumn Wind caught a whiff of that familiar fragrance.
The old woman's voice echoed again. Autumn Wind wanted to break free from Qiu Ruolan's embrace but found herself unwilling and lacking the strength to leave.
She nestled into Qiu Ruolan's arms, trying to relax.
Yet her thoughts drifted elsewhere. She imagined having amnesia, but not all her memories had vanished; they lingered at the happiest moments—those times in Beijing.
Back then, she wasn't familiar with Liu Jian; they had only met once. It was understandable to forget him, especially since when she saw Liu Jian again, Autumn Wind indeed had forgotten what he looked like.
The child was gone, the once self-assured support was lost, and the relationship that lacked love had turned into a mere title.
Autumn Wind knew she bore an undeniable responsibility in her life with Liu Jian, and now that everything was gone, she realized it was time for her to leave.
Taking this opportunity to escape her past life would mean continuing with Liu Jian would only harm them both.
Autumn Wind truly felt no resentment towards Liu Jian; instead, a deep sense of guilt compelled her to make a quick decision.
Qiu Ruolan held Autumn Wind tightly and whispered softly, "It's okay, it's okay... He will never bully you again!"
In Qiu Ruolan's mind, the reason Autumn Wind had the accident was entirely because she saw Liu Jian being intimate with Jolie.
She shot a venomous glare at Liu Jian, wishing she could expel all the poison within her body and spray it all over him.
Autumn Wind decided to act according to plan. She gently pushed Qiu Ruolan aside and looked at the guilt-ridden Liu Jian. "Hey, this is a public place, and there are others around. Aren't you afraid of exposing your identity?"
Qiu Ruolan was taken aback by Autumn Wind suddenly pushing her away. Hearing Autumn Wind speak so cautiously, she recalled the doctor's words.
She glanced at Liu Jian, realizing that Autumn Wind's earlier shout was not because Liu Jian had bullied her.
Has she really lost her memory?
Qiu Ruolan stared at Autumn Wind with wide eyes. "You... don't remember him?"
"He... looks a bit familiar? Your new assistant?" Autumn Wind fixed her gaze on Liu Jian, her body still, softly answering Qiu Ruolan's question.
"No, he’s not my assistant. His name is Liu Jian. You really don’t remember him?"
Autumn Wind shook her head and turned to Qiu Ruolan: "Did I just faint? How long was I out?"
"You just fainted? Are you crazy..." Qiu Ruolan exclaimed, casting a sideways glance at Autumn Wind, her eyes revealing a hint of despair. She couldn't believe that Autumn Wind had indeed lost her memory and didn’t remember Liu Jian.
But Qiu Ruolan also felt a bit relieved, thankful that Autumn Wind hadn’t forgotten her.
Seeing that Qiu Ruolan understood her amnesia, a pang of sadness struck Autumn Wind. She glanced at Liu Jian, the man she had lived with for days, his eyes reflecting a painful light.
With a long sigh, Autumn Wind slowly shifted her body and lay back down. She gently touched Qiu Ruolan: "How did I faint? I remember I just got off the plane with Ervin. Where is he?"
The name Qiu Mowen slipped lightly from Autumn Wind's lips. Startled by her own words, she shrank back, having hypnotized herself too deeply, completely forgetting that Qiu Mowen had left.
Upon hearing Autumn Wind mention Qiu Mowen, the expression on Qiu Ruolan's face grew more serious. Her emotions were tangled as she pondered how to tell Autumn Wind about Qiu Mowen's passing.
Her lips trembled for a moment, but ultimately no sound came out.
Autumn Wind lay on the hospital bed, slowly closing her eyes. She was so afraid that Qiu Ruolan would bring up anything related to Qiu Mowen's death.
Over the past month, she had gradually begun to accept the fact that Qiu Mowen was gone. Even so, she still feared that Qiu Ruolan would recount the story of Qiu Mowen's departure in a storyteller's tone.
Autumn Wind actually admired her own ability to self-hypnotize. After a few minutes, she put away her thoughts and opened her eyes again.
Her hand gently brushed over the injury left by the car accident, and she glanced at Liu Jian before asking Qiu Ruolan, "Why am I lying in the hospital?"
Seeing Autumn Wind looking at Liu Jian, anger surged within Qiu Ruolan. She almost gritted her teeth as she said, "A bad person hurt you and shamelessly stayed here..."
Liu Jian lowered his gaze, listening to Qiu Ruolan's insults directed at him. His heart felt like it was being cut by a knife. Just now, when Autumn Wind mentioned Qiu Mowen, those three words pierced through the armor he had forged from steel and iron.
Qiu Mowen's earnest request and the trusting look he had given Autumn Wind tore Liu Jian apart like a wild beast.
His guilt towards Qiu Mowen quickly engulfed him like a flood breaking through a dam, making it hard for him to breathe normally. He felt a heavy pressure in his chest that made him feel as if he might die from discomfort.
Autumn Wind noticed Liu Jian's face turning from red to pale and knew he must be feeling terrible inside as well.
She softly said, "So who exactly is he..."
Her voice was very light, yet it struck harder than a sharp sword, leaving Liu Jian feeling utterly exposed.
"He... he is someone..." Qiu Ruolan wanted to continue attacking Liu Jian, but as her eyes swept over Liu Jian's pale face, she suddenly felt powerless. She swallowed the remaining words back down.
"Hard to describe?" Autumn Wind asked persistently.
"I'm sorry... I, I'll step out for a moment..." Liu Jian couldn't bear the heavy atmosphere, slightly bowed, then opened the door and walked out.
"You bastard..." Qiu Ruolan shouted at Liu Jian's back.
Autumn Wind gently touched Qiu Ruolan's arm and asked, "Who exactly is he?"
This time, Qiu Ruolan responded with a long sigh.
The ward fell silent.
After a long while, Qiu Ruolan stood up. "I should find a doctor and tell them you’re awake..." She started to move forward but was stopped by Autumn Wind.
"Tell me, what exactly happened..."
As soon as Autumn Wind finished speaking, Qiu Ruolan's body began to tremble violently; she cried...
Autumn Wind's heart was still filled with confusion.
Autumn Wind knew that everything she had just said and done was cruel to both Liu Jian and Qiu Ruolan, but the selfishness deep within her forced her to act this way.
Autumn Wind understood that she was ultimately a selfish person.
Qiu Ruolan pressed the button at the door, and soon the sound of footsteps from a doctor echoed in the hallway.
When the doctor entered, Liu Jian followed in, mistakenly thinking something had happened to Autumn Wind.
His pale face showed a hint of brightness as he saw Autumn Wind lying on the bed; his eyes darted around before he respectfully stood by the wall.
After the doctor examined Autumn Wind, he told Qiu Ruolan that Autumn Wind was subconsciously avoiding some things she was unwilling to face, which made her unhappy. Autumn Wind's memory would soon recover.
Subconscious avoidance? Autumn Wind scoffed; it was actually a form of self-hypnotic escape...
"How long will it take for her to recover?" Qiu Ruolan asked anxiously.
"That's hard to say..."
"What about her body? Is there any issue?"
"According to the latest examination results, there's nothing serious. She can be observed for a few more days and then go home to rest..."
"Okay, thank you, doctor..." Qiu Ruolan replied gratefully.
As the doctor left, Qiu Ruolan noticed Liu Jian in the corner of the room. The earlier calmness immediately turned into disdain as she shot a fierce glare at Liu Jian.
Liu Jian dared not meet Qiu Ruolan's gaze but slowly approached Autumn Wind. He controlled his anxiety and quietly asked, "Are you hungry? Do you want to eat something first?"
His voice was soft, like a ray of sunlight shining on Autumn Wind's face. She knew Liu Jian must be feeling uncomfortable inside and gently nodded.
Upon receiving Autumn Wind's response, Liu Jian immediately said, "Then I'll go buy you something to eat right now..." He didn't look at Qiu Ruolan's reaction and quickly left the room.
After Liu Jian left, Autumn Wind straightened up. She glanced sideways at the busy Qiu Ruolan and felt she should make some reasonable gestures regarding her amnesia.
"Hey..." she softly called out to Qiu Ruolan, "Aren't you afraid of being seen by others for being so openly present in my hospital room?"
Qiu Ruolan's busy hands paused at Autumn Wind's words. "Uh... well..." she stammered, turning her back to Autumn Wind.
"This!" "Hmm!" Qiu Ruolan occasionally uttered various interjections. "Sigh... forget it..." After a long hesitation, Qiu Ruolan put down what she was doing, sat on the edge of the bed, and began to recount the things that Autumn Wind had deliberately concealed.
This included Autumn Wind's romance with Liu Jian, her pregnancy, their engagement, Liu Jian's infidelity, the car accident, and the miscarriage; it also included her arguments with Qiu Feng, Yusha's death; and it included Yu's divorce and the shop that now belonged to Autumn Wind.
But she did not mention Qiu Mowen's death.
Autumn Wind understood that Qiu Ruolan was intentionally avoiding something just like herself, but at that moment, Autumn Wind's heart suddenly ached; she had never missed Qiu Mowen as much as she did now.
Autumn Wind gently placed her hand on her belly. "There was once a life here..."
Qiu Ruolan's gaze followed the movement of Autumn Wind's hand up and down, but she dared not meet Autumn Wind's eyes, fearing that Autumn Wind would ask about Qiu Mowen.
Yet Autumn Wind still broached this frightening question...
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