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Only the Unloved is the Other Woman
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When I first thought about divorce was in the fifth year of my marriage to Xu Chuye.
"We should probably have a child by now, right?"
Xu Chuye said this in a calm tone, as if asking what to have for breakfast the next day, but I couldn't stay calm after hearing it.
I was washing dishes, my hands covered in foam, wet and slippery. Just then, I lost my grip on a plate, and it clattered loudly into the sink.
Feeling down, I put down my chopsticks, rinsed off the suds on my hands, and casually wiped them on my apron.
"Didn't we agree on being childfree before we got married? Didn't you also say you didn't like kids before?"
He saw my Justified argument expression and his face froze for a moment, then he quickly put on a different expression and laughed, "I was just joking with you, why did you take it seriously?"
"I don't like it when you make jokes like that."
After saying this, I went straight into the bedroom without looking back, and threw a bunch of pots and pans at him.
"Ningning, don't be angry."
Alpha ran into the room and hugged me affectionately, but I knew he wasn't joking with what he said earlier, so I decided to ignore him.
"Wife, I've had a tiring day at work today, can you help me out?"
Alpha smiled shyly, but the meaning behind his words was all too clear.
His words made me even more annoyed, so I didn't indulge him, "I also have a job during the day, and I still have to buy groceries and cook after work. Am I not tired?"
"Lin Xuanning."
Xu Chuye let go of my hand and spoke with a slightly cold tone, "Don't you think you can be too dominant at times?"
"Am I domineering?"
I opened my mouth, feeling sour and bitter, "How dare you say that? Who was the one who said during our marriage that they didn't want me to suffer the pain of childbirth, and that we could live without having children?"
Xu Chuye rubbed his face and said, "Although that's what I said, it was before we got married. At that time, we were both not very mature, so I think we were not suitable to be parents in that situation. But Lin Xuanning, it's been five years. We've been married for five years, and we are both in our thirties. Our friends and classmates of the same age have already had a second child, and their homes are lively and warm. In contrast, when we come home, it's cold and quiet. My mom has urged me many times, but I always choose to support you. When will you also consider my feelings?"
His words made me laugh in exasperation, "Well, let me tell you, by not having a child, I am considering your feelings."
The silence in the air is terrifying. I know it's an extreme thing to say, but it was him who started the fire, not me. So even though I feel guilty, I don't want to apologize. However, the next moment, he slams the door and leaves.
Watching his receding figure at the door, my lips are trembling. I throw whatever is at hand to the ground and can't help but cover my face and cry.
"I always felt that our relationship was very stable, I don't know why he would do that..."
I was crying while talking to my childhood playmate, who is a male Alpha. He has always believed that male Alphas, except for himself, are all useless, and that Omegas, except for me, are all materialistic. That's why he has never gotten married.
"Over the years, in order for him to eat better, I have been like a mother, buying groceries after work and cooking at home. At first, he would help me a little, but now, after a tiring day at work, I have to serve him food and drinks and then let him boss me around to wash the dishes..."
"I have a PhD in literature, I have the looks, and I have the status in the academic world. He's just a returnee graduate student, the only reason he can earn more than me is because I chose a stable civil service job that can support a family. Xu Xu, I should have listened to you in the first place, not be swayed by that guy's appearance, and believed his pile of nonsense lies..."
On the other end of the phone, Xu Zhiran kept speaking. After a while, my sensitive and suspicious self couldn't help but ask, "Xu Xu, are you listening? Xu Xu?"
I heard him take a puff of the cigarette, and when he coughed, his voice was a bit hoarse. I couldn't help but advise him, "Don't smoke, Xu Xu."
"Lin Xuanning, as an outsider, there are some things that are hard to hear when said out loud."
I swallowed and said, "...go on."
"Perhaps..."
On the other end of the phone, Xu Zhiran paused, "Maybe your Alpha Could you provide me with a specific text or context loves you as much as you imagine."
"Impossible."
I couldn't help but retort, and sure enough, I heard the other party's helpless sigh. Clearly, I was the one who had been wronged, but it seemed as if I couldn't help but defend my Alpha to prove something.
"Before he got married, he could get drenched in the rain just to come to my house and give me a birthday present."
"He doesn't smoke or drink, and he gives me all the money he earns."
"He never restricts me from buying or eating anything I want, as long as I'm happy."
"After work, he always goes straight home, except for necessary dinner engagements, he has never spent the night out..."
As I said this, I looked around the empty house, feeling more and more uncertain.
"First, on the day he celebrated your birthday with you, it was indeed raining heavily outside, but he was also wearing a raincoat. If he didn't want you to see him in a disheveled state, or if he considered that you would also get wet in the rain, he wouldn't have contacted you to come downstairs."
Xu Zhiran saw that I was silent and started a debate-like retort.
"Secondly, not smoking or drinking, returning home on time after work, and earning and handing over wages does not necessarily represent high-quality Alpha. Besides, I only heard from you that in the first year of your marriage, he handed over his wages to you, and at that time his salary was not as high as yours. After you later stepped back from work for the sake of the family, I didn't hear from you again that he handed over his wages to you."
"As for you saying that he doesn't restrict what you want to eat or not eat, that's because you are used to using your own money when buying things you like. You don't use his money, so of course he won't restrict you."
"Oh, right. You said he's never spent the night out before. But look at the time now, has he come home?"
I looked up at the clock in a fluster, biting my lip and silently reciting a number in my heart.
"It's already eleven o'clock..."
I heard Alpha's voice sounding annoyed as he read out the time, and I wanted to retort defiantly, but then I heard the sound of someone changing shoes in the entranceway.
"My husband is back, I won't say anything for now."
I threw the phone and ran to the door. But thinking about the other person's previous attitude being so bad, I didn't want to show that I had forgiven him, so I had to pretend to open the door in a nonchalant manner.
"What time is it already? Do you even know how to come back..."
I wrinkled my brow at the strong smell of alcohol. "Have you been drinking?"
Although this sentence is a question, even I can hear the impatience in the tone, "Where are you going to drink?"
I couldn't help but provoke the other person again, even though I know that this kind of conversation between husband and wife often only leads to more intense arguments.
"I'm asking you a question, can you hear me?"
My temper gradually couldn't be contained, and my tone shifted from impatience to a blatant interrogation.
"I'm asking you a question, did you hear me Could you provide me with a specific text or context?"
"I heard you!"
He roared at me, leaving me stunned. However, in the face of the shameless verbal barrage from the other party, there was a moment when I regretted being intimidated by the imposing manner of the other party at that time.
"Lin Xuanning, do you know how annoying your aggressive attitude is?"
Xu Chuye sat at the door like a dejected dog, tugging at his loose tie.
"To be honest with you, I've really put up with you for a long time."
He pointed at my face, using his index finger to tap on it, "Very! Long!"
"Other omegas have tempered their temper after getting married, but I've spoiled you into having a temper."
"After being married for so many years, have I ever complained while working hard to earn money for this family and for you?"
"But I just want to have a child now. I want to have a child..."
He poked his chest forcefully, "Is it wrong for me to want a child? You are my Omega, is it wrong for me to want you to give birth? Why can't you consider my perspective for once, Lin Xuanning? When can you stop being so selfish and self-centered!"
"Am I selfish and self-centered?!"
I couldn't hold back anymore. I grabbed his tie and slammed him against the wall, "You agreed to have a child-free marriage in the first place, not me begging for your consent!"
"That was just to accommodate your emotions! Lunatic!"
He pushed me away, and I staggered, looking at him in disbelief. "Are you calling me crazy?"
"You are a lunatic, just like a mentally deranged lunatic with a short fuse!"
Xu Chuye took a step forward, pinching my chin, "So many years have passed, and you're still like a child who never grows up. Will having a child really cost you your life? Don't you consider who will take care of you when you're old? Do you really think being child-free can last? How many couples end up with love turning into duty and obligation? Do you want to end up like them?!"
I could sense the underlying meaning in his words, "So you agreed to being child-free just as a temporary compromise, just to marry me, right?"
"Lin Xuanning, it's no fun if you say too much."
He let go of me, straightened out the brand-new suit he had bought with my card, and said, "It takes two to tango. Weren't you also attracted to my appearance in the first place? You enjoyed being with me in bed. It was mutual consent. Don't make yourself sound so noble."
Pa...
I couldn't take it anymore, so I slapped him and said, "Get lost!"
"Roll out of my house, roll!"
After drinking, he heard this sentence and his expression momentarily turned unnatural. Although I was also angry, I have contributed more money for this house, so naturally I have more confidence.
"I... I drank too much just now, my mind is not clear..."
Xu Chuye covered his face and stepped back, then gave himself a slap, suddenly hugged me, "I'm sorry, wife, I'm sorry, I... don't be... don't be angry... I... I drank too much..."
"Drank too much?"
I sneered, "I'm afraid it's not just drunken words speaking the truth, right? You've been pretending for so long, can't bear it anymore, right? Since you can't bear it, then get out of here."
"No!"
He held her tighter. "I was just, I was just too angry, I spoke without thinking, I... I really..."
Ring ring ring...
The sound of the phone ringing, I lowered my eyes and noticed the vibrating phone on the floor, with only a name and a single line of numbers.
Recently, Xu Chuye has been traveling more and more frequently. Sometimes, he even hides in the bathroom or the shower to make secret phone calls late at night. I started to have suspicions, but Xu Chuye clearly didn't expect the other person to contact him at that time. He hastily threw down the phone and picked it up in a panic to press the hang-up button.
"Even making harassing calls at this time..."
He scratched his head and said with a forced smile, "At this moment, my heart felt like it had plummeted to the bottom of a valley, and a chill ran through me from head to toe.
I can't stay in this home for another minute."
"Don't wait for me."
I took a deep breath. After all, we are still husband and wife. I can't give him a reason to think I won't come home.
"Ningning......Ningning, don't...Ningning!"
I grabbed my phone and wallet and slammed the door, but as expected, he caught up with me.
The distance between him and me, although just separated by a door, feels like thousands of miles apart.
I heard his phone ring again with my own ears. I stood outside the door, clinging to it, like a shameless voyeur. But the door was too thick. Besides his deliberately lowered "hello," I didn't hear anything else.
"That, hey, is not the tone you use with strangers."
When I went downstairs, I saw a spark in the darkness without any surprise. Even though I couldn't see the person clearly, I knew without thinking that it must be Xu Zhiran coming to find me. Because other than him, my dad, and of course my ex-husband, there wouldn't be any other Alpha who cares about me.
"Do you know something, right?"
I stopped in my tracks and smirked at him, "Tell me everything you've seen or heard, don't hold anything back."
He didn't ask me where to go when he dropped me off at the hotel. I couldn't help but urge him, "Hurry up and say it." My tone was very relaxed, but that was just me pretending, because I had almost guessed that Xu Chuye was having an affair.
He raised his head, and although he didn't say much, he asked a crucial question.
"Ningning, will you get a divorce?"
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