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"Xiao Lin, do you dare to say you don't like Chen Gang?"
I remained silent and did not answer.
"Since we can't let go of the past, why not be together?"
"But..."
"There are no 'buts.'" He walked in front of me, bent down, and lifted the soft blanket beneath my feet.
Under the blanket were scattered sleeping pills.
The air instantly froze.
He picked one up and looked at me with a sarcastic yet gloomy gaze.
He curled his lips into a smile.
Xu Zimo's smile was beautiful, but at that moment, it sent chills down my spine.
"Xiao Lin, you are taking medication."
"Yes, I can't sleep, so I've been taking sleeping pills."
"If I hadn't come, were you planning to keep taking them?"
"Yes."
"And then what?" He raised an eyebrow, his tone suddenly sharp, "Die?"
I fell silent.
I had indeed thought about dying.
After Chen Yun's death, I lived every day in guilt and self-blame.
I lost the person I loved most and caused Chen Gang to lose his beloved sister.
My brother lay in bed as a vegetable.
And my beloved mother also passed away from a sudden brain hemorrhage after my brother's accident.
My father couldn't accept my mother's death and committed suicide by jumping off a building.
In one night, I lost four family members.
And I am the culprit who caused their deaths. What right do I have to continue living?
“Xiao Lin, you are different from me,” Xu Zimo's voice echoed in my ears.
“What’s so different?” I retorted.
“You have parents and a younger brother; they all love you.”
“Love?” I chuckled bitterly. “My dad forced my fifteen-year-old brother to work at the Black Workshop to gather medical fees for my mom. As a result, my brother had his fingers cut off by a machine, fainted in pain on the road, and was hit by a truck. When my dad found out, he couldn’t bear the blow and jumped from the building. My mom couldn’t accept reality either and left…”
I choked up, almost unable to continue.
“Xiao Lin…”
“Xu Zimo, no one in this world loves me.”
“I do.” Xu Zimo's voice was soft but particularly firm.
I stared at him in shock.
“My parents favored boys over girls. They divorced when I was ten. My mom and I depended on each other; she worked hard to raise me. I vowed from a young age that I would make her life better.”
“When I went to college, my mom was diagnosed with uremia. To raise money for her surgery, I took on various part-time jobs, even selling blood. It was during this time that I met Chen Yun. She not only gave me money but also helped her mother find a matching kidney source. I fell in love with her at first sight and vowed to treat her well for life.”
At this point, he let out a bitter laugh.
“Unfortunately, there’s no chance for that in this lifetime.”
“Xiao Lin, let’s get married.”
“Why me?”
“Because you won’t fall in love with me.”
After Xu Zimo said this, he turned and left.
A few days later, I learned from Ma Jun that Xu Zimo was eager to marry someone to deal with his family's pressure for marriage. He had made a promise with Chen Yun that they would marry once she returned to the country. But unexpectedly, Chen Yun remained abroad forever. Over the years, Xu Zimo had been unable to move on; his family grew increasingly disappointed in him and began arranging blind dates for him.
Forced by circumstances, he could only randomly find someone to marry.
But I never expected that this person would be me.
"Xu Zimo, why me?"
"Because you won't fall in love with me."
These words felt like a blunt knife scraping at my heart.
How much does Xu Zimo love Chen Yun?
"By the way, did you know that Chen Gang is getting married?"
I was slightly taken aback. "What did you say?"
"I ran into him a few days ago; he was already picking out wedding rings with a girl."
My mind went blank.
Chen Gang is getting married?
But isn't his girlfriend me?
"Xiao Lin, are you sad?"
"Why should I be sad?"
I lifted my head, trying hard not to let the tears fall.
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